And then my heart went splat!

I remember this scene. Jude (pictured above) felt abandoned by Lucy, his girlfriend, and proceeded to splatter strawberries covered in red paint on various canvasses in his art studio.

Basically, I feel like one of those strawberries. I went to bible study and they asked us to share about what was going on in our lives, and I just threw my heart onto the canvas, and it went splat. I left soon afterwards, because I was kind of embarrassed that they had to see the culmination of my life's worries explode on the floor like a paintball. But it kind of all tumbled out of my mouth, and I couldn't stop it. They prayed for me though, which was nice. I would pray for myself, but I don't think God's really listening to me right now... I don't know why, and He won't tell me. I don't know how the hell I'm going to get through this...